Other - August 20, 2013

When You Get Jealous

when you get jealous, stop staring. stop clicking. focus on you. via brightontheday blog

I know…much easier said than done. But I got to thinking and I’m curious, why do we do this? Why do we (willingly!) dig ourselves deeper and deeper into a dark black hole that only leads to lust for more more more! I need this. I want that. I want to be like her. She’s got it all together- sigh.

Come on, you know you do it – we’ve all had our fair share of facebook/instagram (back)stalking. And If I didn’t know any better, I’d say that it seems as if we want to torture ourselves. Am I right? Did I mention Pinterest? Because sometimes that’s the worst for me personally! I have to literally limit by Pinterest intake or I’d have zero self confidence (I’m exaggerating) and would never be happy. Is it just me or does Pinterest leave you feeling ungrateful, materialistic, and all around worldly??

They say that comparison is the thief of joy and gosh-be-golly are they SO right. It’s hard to draw the line, or rather to control ourselves, to be just “inspired” enough without beginning to covet or throw a full-out pity party. You know? So STOP it!

Sometimes I talk to myself (yes, out load), which means a lot of things (both good and weird). But in this case, it means that occasionally when I’m scrolling down my pinterest feed, I spastically yell “STOP IT RIGHT NOW, BRIGHTON KELLER!” …to yes, you guessed it, no one other than myself. I know this sounds a little dramatic, but hey…you gotta do what you gotta do. But even still, sometimes (usually more often than I’d like), I end up digging myself miles deep into that hole because…well…the whole self control thing is much easier said than done.

I was nervous about publishing this post, but then I realized that there’s no way I’m alone here! Right?!! It’s hard to be vulnerable (on the internet for everyone and their mother to see. eep!), but my hope is that some of you will feel refreshed by this post and like you can relate to me.  These feelings and thoughts are 100% normal, but they shouldn’t control you or your happiness. Put things into perspective. The choice is yours- focus on you.