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On Faith: Asking The Hard Questions

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The more I learn about God and faith (and even just the world in general), the more I wish I had a pause button.

The smaller I feel and the bigger He becomes. The more I’m able to see the wretchedness of my sin and the more I’m able to see my need for grace upon grace.

The more questions I have and the stronger my desire is to wrestle with doubts and inconsistencies in the world and in my life.

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So why do I want a pause button? Because I wish I could spend countless hours just hanging out with God (ha! but unfortunately, I have to eventually start my day). I find myself wishing I had more time to simply sit, read and be still before Him. But maybe this is just part of growing up? …part of having to make some sense of the world around us?

I used to be such a busy body, trying to do everything and be everywhere. I wanted to do it all – and hardly ever did I let myself sit, reflect, and think about things. Because, I was just SO BUSY! 😂🙈 (#lies) instead, I just DID things and justified them along the way – or something like that. And then got distracted by the next big thing or event, rather than truly holding myself accountable for my actions and experiences. And another thing I didn’t do was ask myself the hard questions and wrestle with my doubts – because you know, I didn’t have time for that kind of stuff.

Maybe it’s because I’m getting older or something, but my life is much simpler these days. I don’t feel the need to fill my days with busyness. And being still doesn’t bother me as much. In fact, I look forward to my quiet time and feel off-balanced when I don’t have it. It keeps me sane and in the right mindset, so to say.

My life is slower and I give myself a lot more grace when it comes to doing #AllTheThings. I think this ability to slow down and tell myself ‘hey, it’s okay BK’ when I don’t get it all done has got to be a manifestation of the peace I’ve found in the Lord (by his grace, of course!). I just don’t feel like I need to do it all anymore. I don’t know how else to explain it but it’s liberating.

The thing is, though, that it takes a sort of letting go and slowing down that might scare the crap out of your type-A mentality in order to enjoy it (the Lords peace, that is). But I’m confident this scary-letting-go-ness I’m talking about is worth it because it makes me feel safe (in a fallen, scary, unpredictable world) in a way that no business, no bank account, no husband, no philosophy or family etc ever could.

I love this quote by Tim Keller:
A faith without some doubts is like a human body with no antobodies in it. People who blithely go through life too busy or indifferent to ask the hard questions about why they believe as they do will find themselves defenseless against either the experience of tragedy or the probing questions of a smart skeptic. A person’s faith can collapse almost overnight if she failed over the years to listen patiently to her own doubts, which should only be discarded after long reflection.”

– Timothy Keller

So I’m curious, do you feel this way? do you feel compelled to ask the hard questions as you learn more and continue to grow in faith? Do you wrestle with doubts and are you easily swayed from one opinion or way of thought to another? Or are you grounded in His promises (slash do you know what they are?)

Knowing his promises and the closed-fist truths (the non-disputable ones) are one thing I’m really focusing on right now. Sure, there are things like predestination and infant baptism that people will always argue over, but there are also things (concrete truths) that we can clench onto as Christians and not waver in. These are the truths I think we all need to consider and figure out WHY we believe them by way of examining and questioning them.

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    Ashley Zboril
    July 27, 2015 at 4:03 pm

    Brighton, your blog is wonderful. I follow you on Instagram, but had not read any posts from your faith section until now. I think with age, we start to realize life should be more simple. It’s exhausting to try and stay in control of everything going on around you, especially the things society deems important. This is the sole reason I started my blog, Simplicity. Granted it’s no where near as cool as yours and I really have no idea what I’m doing yet, the sole purpose of it is just to make lives a little easier! I did a post on Faith the other day and choosing the right path in the Crossroads we encounter. I can definitely relate to the type A personality issues of the difficulty in letting go…it’s SO hard. I’m such a control freak, so learning to let go and trust that God is big enough to handle my issues has been quite the feat for me. Learning to truly trust Him and knowing that he always knows best will help you in choosing which way to go on the paths you encounter! I know it’s a work in progress….trust me I’m super hard headed, but it’s so refreshing when you learn to let go and things work out in front of your own eyes! It takes courage to post about things of this nature, but keep up the good work!

    If you get a chance, check out my post on crossroads! http://www.simplicitytherxoflife.com/?cat=6

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    Altimese Nichole
    June 26, 2015 at 11:04 am

    Love your blog!!! Keep going and sharing your beautiful spirit with the world!

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    brooke gallegos
    June 15, 2015 at 3:18 pm

    Hi! You should look up JW.org to help you out with your bible reading! It has helped me so much and I love the answers that it gave me from the bible to my questions like why is there so much suffering? Will we see our dead loved ones again? I love too how I can read a updated modern day language bible online there too :) love your blog! Glad I found it! Have a wonderful day!

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    Amy Persons
    June 14, 2015 at 12:17 pm

    You are precious and I love that you’re using this platform to share His goodness.
    Those sweet moments are the best there are. And I adore your style!!

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    Ashley Landry
    June 13, 2015 at 1:04 pm

    I can relate. I wrote a blog post back in October about the hard questions and how they can shed light on our relationship with God and others. Enjoy this quiet time in your life as I know you will learn about yourself. Keep up the great blog posts and thank you for sharing!

    http://ashleylandry.wordpress.com

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    Liz Parker
    June 12, 2015 at 7:19 pm

    Hi, Brighton – There was a time in my life that I was afraid to ask the hard questions ( I mean, who was I to question God on anything in His Word or even the events of my life?). But I now know that God wants us to be real with Him and to ask those questions because it means we are seeking the truth, searching for answers, and seeking after Him. In doing that, we grow in our faith and relationship with Him. BUT I also have to stay grounded in the truth and actively seek Him because very easily the lies and deception can sneak their way in and weaken my faith. In one study book, I learned that in order to recognize fraudulent bills, the authentic bill is studied – every single tiny detail. Why? By knowing the real deal, it’s easier to spot a fake when it appears. The connection was made to Scripture. The better we know the truth, the easier it will be to recognize the lies that the enemy will try to place in our minds. I think of Romans 10:17, “So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.” Knowing the truth strengthens our faith. I still wrestle with doubt from time to time, not in the sense that I doubt who God says He is or what He is capable of doing, but rather that I don’t feel like I can always apply it to myself on a personal level or claim it over my life because I’m just one person in a very big world (and some of my worries just seem trivial)… but that right there is a lie. And this is again why I need to be in step with Him and diving into the Word.

    P.S. I’ve come to learn of you and your blog through Instagram and, I have to say – I appreciate these posts and think it’s so refreshing to see. Thank you for sharing your heart and faith.

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    Stephanie
    June 12, 2015 at 3:29 pm

    I have to say I think these doubts and hard questions more often than I’d like to admit. It’s scary, but I do agree that quiet time really really helps! And especially about the things that will always be argued over like predestination, I do wonder, but I now know that it’s okay NOT to know the answer. What a great read!

    Stephanie
    petitepastels.blogspot.com

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