Faith - November 27, 2015

When Sharing Becomes a Burden


Over the past few months, I’ve been trying to figure out how to do my job well. And that’s been QUITE the journey – in many ways. One thing I’ve been trying to figure out is how to separate my personal (especially pertaining to my faith) from my professional life – learning where to draw that line and what I’m comfortable with. And hey, maybe I’ll never figure it out – haven’t yet

The line between the two was getting pretty blurry for me (if you’ve been following me for a while, then you probably witnessed this?). Anyway, in theory, merging the two (being a fashion blogger AND also sharing bits and pieces of my personal walk with the Lord) sounded relatively easy and seamless. I mean, how hard could it be? Right?! Or at the very least, it sounded appealing and something to which I aspired. I was excited about it and thought I could do it well. But y’all, it wasn’t so easy ? Nope

And something that started out pure and light started to become heavy. I put pressure on myself to come to some kind of conclusion on what God was teaching me each time I sat down to spend time with Him.

And as I’m sure you know, that’s just not how it works. As much as your pouring out into others, you kinda need to be FILLING up your own ‘cup’ too – with your own personal QT with Him. Like, you can’t kill 2 birds with 1 stone here. Or at least I couldn’t

I’ll be honest. My relationship with God can be pretty messy and sometimes dry and definitely not always pretty. And sometimes I don’t have a flipping clue what He wants or what he’s “teaching” me. And that’s OKAY

anyway, so eventually this (self-inflicted pressure) began to steal my joy. My quiet times felt like a burden. To be frank, I found myself studying the bible at the expense of spending quality time with The Lord (just so I could share something). And that’s just NOT right or good or glorifying to Him

So I took a step back and pulled back on the vulnerability/faith front-at least until I could figure out how to balance things

I just wanted to share that TODAY bc sales are great and all, but Jesus is WAY BETTER. I’ll continue to tell you about all the ways to save, BUT remember thats not what ultimately matters